5:50 40 minutes seated noting. Aversion to tensions in right side of body was predominant throughout. It was a bit of a relief to give noting attention to these tensions after not having done much of it for about 48 hours. Pulsing, aversion, sadness, thinking, aversion, anxiety, expanding, tingling, pleasure (there was a hint of pleasure in the right-side sensations at times), anxiety, aversion ...
I'd awoken at 5:30 and tried mightily to note while reclining ... but the mind just doesn't notice sensations at as fine a level of detail in this position, usually.
1pm 30 minutes noting with meditation group at work. Tension was strong in the right side of my face, perhaps as it was when I was doing concentration practice at the Forest Refuge last year, and attention was mostly there. I noticed a lot of bundles of turbulent sensation that weren't nameable. Also lots of small moments of poignant pleasure. Notes were: tension, aversion, craving, tingling, pleasure, pulsing, tension, hunger, rocking, sleepiness, tingling, tension, pleasure ... When sleepiness was present, I was reminded of the session three weeks ago when I had the "nothing to hold onto experience" and had thoughts of wanting and looking for that to recur. But forgot to note those thoughts.
About 7 minutes into the session, a Blue Angel roared close by. It didn't become audible until it was very close. At first I didn't recognize the sound and for a fraction of a second I was very alarmed and opened my eyes. I was left with an adrenaline rush that lasted a few minutes. Gustavo said that after having lived in Israel for many years, he knows the sound of a fighter jet.
The tension in the face has been present all day and continues to be present after meditation.
7pm 20 minutes seated noting on the airplane. Lots of anger and aversion. Finally decided to sleep.
8pm 20 minutes anapanasati concentration practice. It's lovely how piti (pleasure) arises almost immediately with this practice.
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