I've been feeling happy. Life with Eric and Z has been sweet. Practice has been compelling.
For the past 2 months, craving has been prominent during practice. Most discomforts boil down to raw craving: anger, restlessness, aversion. I'm learning what dukkha is. Unsatisfactoriness. I'm seeing that dukkha is the engine that drives most actions.
26 days ago, my supervisor told me that my job performance sucks. Interestingly, that hasn't made work distasteful. In fact, for the past couple weeks I've really enjoyed doing my work and have been alert and energetic while working. A lot has been happening and it's impossible to tease out cause and effect:
- A year ago I began having sore feet in the mornings. It's gradually gotten worse. Now my feet are sore most of the time, but especially after some rest. Then, 2.5 months ago, my hands have been sore. This has motivated me to take better care of myself ...
- 28 days ago, Zarina and I began a 28-day yoga program .We've done it every day since then, except skipping 2 days. I see some of my strength and flexibility returning. Lessening flexibility in the pecs and hip flexors seems to have reversed (partly because even before the 28 day program I'd already become more diligent about stretching those areas).
- 35 days ago my doctor put me on a gluten-free diet. This incidentally has also been a mostly sugar-free diet and low-cal diet.
- In the past 40 days I've had 2 treatments from my friend H, who is an intuitive healer
- I've been meditating more intensively the past several months
- I've been saying "no" more easily. I've been diligent and unashamed about staying un-busy.
- I've been hydrating diligently since the beginning of the summer, with the encouragement of Eric and Z.
- The past month or so I've been resting more, going to bed earlier and lying down sometimes in the afternoon.
