Went orienteering in Eastern Washington over the weekend. Meditated a couple of hours each day, about half of it in the car. I felt sullen and withdrawn during a fair amount of the time (Saturday evening, Sunday drive home). I was largely uninterested in chatting with orienteers.
During Saturday's long race at Moses Lake, looked especially at the emotions that arise immediately after each control marker comes into view. It's some kind of anxiety/upset that lasts a few seconds.
Did some noting during yesterday's "goat" (really, "kid") race at Fishtrap Lake, during which I followed Eileen Breseman almost the entire time and thus finished about 9km in under 2 hours. Wondered why I wasn't noting pleasure more often, given I was in such a beautiful place. Noticed notion that it was dangerous or inadvisable to note pleasure. After that, tried to notice (and note) pleasure more often. Noticed anxiety that arises immediately after noting pleasure.
Today:
6:40 am One hour very softly whispered noting. Sadness was noted often. No aversion; it wasn't hard to do a full hour. Seemed maybe I was noticing the ends of things, but this notion is highly suggested by stuff I've read on the stages of insight.
9:30 am Half hour noting while walking to Trip's office. Felt easy to do.
10:25 pm Ten minutes seated noting. Stopped due to restless legs.
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