10:45 At desk at work, spent a few minutes touching my right jaw, noticing, feeling, moving. I employed noting somewhat. The usual rocking, suckling, desire, yearning, pleasure ... hearing, pulsing, pressure, release ... and something new: an intense sensation akin to pain in the right chest. Overall, a sense of desperation, of not knowing what's coming, not knowing what I need, not knowing what to do. And a never-satisfied yearning for some unknown thing.
I meet with Beth in a few hours. I have this notion that I've not been meditating diligently, that I've been misbehaving and will be reprimanded.
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