Haven't felt like logging much lately. Also, have been meditating less than 1.5 hours/day most days for past 2.5 weeks or more.
1:50pm 87 minutes seated silent noting in Studio P3 at work. (I quit before 90 minutes.) Quite difficult. I was almost constantly aware of a holding (associated with trauma-related tensions in right side) that I felt desperate to release. Pressure, tension, anguish, expanding, releasing, letting go, relaxing, aching, tension, anguish, pulsing, quivering, letting go ... sleepiness (several times I fell into a dreamy state, then "awoke" into a state without much thought) ... craving, clinging ... coolness, hunger. Mind was fairly quiet; when thinking occurred, I let go quickly ... thinking, shame, anguish ...
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